My friend asked me how I thought the O-Chem exam went... I told her that it was a pity that our classroom is only on the second floor...

B.A.P - 1004

I literally cannot even. Their new music video came out a few weeks ago and oh my Jesus, it is a work of art. There's still some parts of it that I'm a bit fuzzy on, but aside from that, I think I get basically everything else? Maybe not. It's probably mostly still my own interpretation...

So, in a fan-account of a fan-sign that they held, Himchan said something about why was he always the one dying even when he wasn't the main actor?

Himchan as the main actor: OUT. But, wait, that means that there was a main actor? :O

Out of all the members as being the main, either Daehyun or Jongup makes sense, at least to me. At this point, probably Daehyun since his story line connects with everyone else's (except for Jongup?).

• Cathedral (Yongguk)
• Carousel (Zelo)
• Mirrors (Youngjae)
• Film Reel (Himchan)
• Jongup because the girl is the angel? Not entirely sure about this...

 Anyways, back to the whole analysis thingy...

I guess the members are acting out Daehyun's thoughts/memories that he had with the girl... although I'm still a bit confused as to why Yongguk is digging up that cathedral in the middle of nowhere with a blue whale ribcage behind him... (and it's just a ribcage... no spine, tail, fins/legs, pelvic bones, skull, no nothing... just some ribs sticking up in the middle of dirt...)

I saw another theory and that was that the members themselves are the dead ones and they're going back, and reliving those memories because that's all they can do. It kind of makes sense in a way? Himchan's reflection shot himself so now he doesn't have one (I know, there's "symbolism" behind it but work with me here) and there like a split-second shot of the girl crying on the table? (you know, that infamous one with the MELON on it? yeah, that one). Also, she's looking at the empty dollhouse that it's implied is the same structure that Daehyun walks into in the next shot. So, it might be that they've died and she's missing them because all that's left is the memories.

Then again, the girl could have left? Before, when the teaser came out, there was also some speculation about them returning to MaToki Planet and it being in ruins/abandoned (which I guess explains the ribs?)... Too many theories @.@

Organic Chemistry...

So I think I've realized why Organic Chemistry is exhausting.

It's not even the material, which so far, I understand. Just being in the class is mentally draining.

Everyone who needs to/will take O-Chem will have heard about at least once (if not infinitely many times) before even registering for the class. Because of this, everyone is completely psyched out about it and ends up entering the classroom a complete bundle of nerves. The reputation of O-Chem as being one of the major weeding-out classes for science majors and pre-med students isn't a lie, of course; however, everyone is so consciously/unconsciously freaked out about taking the class, that they're forcing their brains to pay absolute attention every single second of the class. Even if the professor digresses from the topic to dive into a lengthy, if unnecessary explanation, everyone is still diligently hanging on to every word. So, at the end of two hours, your brain is exhausted from going full-power without a break for so long.

I think my lab partner is one of those cut-throat people who will do everything to take advantage of your knowledge but never share what it is that they know. They either pretend that they don't know the material or they'll say "Oh, I finally get it," but then never say anything about it in explanation to you. I'm kind of scared, and now, on top of just O-Chem by itself, I can't let myself lose to anyone. Oh, the joy...